Gidget and Mimi Farina, Big Sur, 1964

Help! I have barricaded myself into my house. Outside, crowds are shouting for more Gidget. More Moondoggie. More beach parties and more Coors Beer in tan cans. And put in more surf boards – those big ones, like Moondoggie used.

Now I have to make good on my promise to write about those strange and magical beings when what I really want to do is sit here like a three toed sloth and listen to Joan Baez singing Sweet Sir Galahad again. Didn’t she ever sing Surfer Girl?

The trouble is I’m a beatnik pig. I never drank Coors Beer in tan cans. When I went to the beach, I went to San Francisco’s North Beach, ‘where there isn’t any water and Big Daddy ain’t your fadder’, as the old song says.

What, you’ve never heard that song? It was very big on Sacramento Street in 1962. Beatniks in peacoats would sing it in unison as they strode through the swirling fog and damp and snailed down the steps into the Ant Palace for another night under the fluorescents watching Officer Bigarini rousting less fortunate beatniks on Columbus Avenue outside the Ant Palace door.

What did we know from Gidget? I went to the movies to see the divine Marie Dubois get shot by that stupid crook in the snow at the end of Shoot The Piano Player.

What? You’ve never heard of that movie? It was very big with ratty student scruff in 1962 as we huddled in our peacoats against the fog and damp of ocean air Irving Street on the way to the Surf Theater to see it for the 81st time.

Sometimes we’d get tired of watching Marie Dubois get shot again so we’d go see Jean Paul Belmondo get shot down in the street like a dog at the end of Breathless because of that traitorous turncoat American itchy bitchy blonde Jean Seberg. Who actually looked a little like Gidget.

Is this clear? Will the lynch mob of admirers outside please go away? Let’s talk about somebody cool instead, like Mimi Farina.

What? You’ve never heard of Mimi Farina? She was very big in the cold plastered kitchens of incandescent Haight-Ashbury flats. Reflections in a Crystal Wind was the name of the LP she put out with her beatnik poet husband who got smashed on his motorcycle in 1966 just when things were really peaking. I can hear it now ringing in my ears along with Donovan’s Sunshine Superman and Country Joe and the Fish’s first album. That was about it for music in our commune the Fall of 1966 thanks to my insufferable roommates the Gunderson twins. Interrupted my studies of the Goldberg Variations, but what could I do? I know. Smoke more dope.

Richard Farina left behind his legacy novel Been Down So Long It Looks Like Up To Me which I still haven’t read. It’s been right up there on my must-read list since 1966. First I have to get through Dune. And The Fellowship of the Ring. That will take me forever. Richard will just have to wait.

Mimi’s legend was huge. I won’t even mention that she was Joan Baez’s little sister. So demeaning to a great lady who went on to found Bread and Roses, the group that brings top music acts to prisons and hospitals and orphanages. She ran it till she died young of cancer a few years ago.

Those Baez girls – unbelievable how they affected all of us. Like there were some people out there who were like us except higher and more beautiful and more noble and could sing better. And knew Bob Dylan.

I saw Mimi perform at a party in Big Sur once. In 1964, when she was about nineteen. Now that I think about it, David Crosby was there too and he was just one more pretty good Big Sur folksinger. But Mimi! There was this air of expectation in the smoke dark rooms of Big Sur Hot Springs. Mimi was coming! Her legend, her mystique was already rife. Joanie’s little sister, she just had to buck up under her big sister’s Queen of the Folksingers aura. Mimi’s actual singing is a blank to me, I’m afraid. I just see her in a pool of saintly angelic light, the scruffy crowd of vikings and timber beasts and grunge artists all hushed and dragging on their Camels as her pure voice sang Cripple Creek or something.

That night we drove to the back of a nearby canyon and hiked up to Crazy Mary’s streamside cabin in the redwoods. It was the summer that word swept though the Underground – smoking Scotch Broom flowers could get you high. Riley Tornfoot and I were in Big Sur to test this hypotheses. We asked somebody what Scotch Broom looked like, then we picked the little yellow flowers all afternoon, stuffed them in a corncob pipe and inhaled deeply. We passed the pipe around to other experimenters. We went outside the cabin to look up through the redwoods at the starry post-Mimi Farina night sky. They glittered no more brightly than before.

Do you feel anything, man?

Maybe. I think I might be feeling something. Give me some more of that.

Or else we would have to drink more Coors beer in tan cans like the surfers did. Actually, beatniks never drank anything stronger than Val-Vin Burgundy $1.99 a gallon.

One more thing, the night before, camping in a field back from Highway 1, we saw Lawrence Ferlinghetti and his girl friend walking through the field. He was wearing a wide brimmed hat and speaking to her of ineffable, wonderful things that we could never know.

What? You’ve never heard of Lawrence Ferlinghetti?

Special thanks to everyone who unknowingly lent me the pictures in this post.
SurfnHula, The web’s best source of collectible Hawaiiana and surfboards
Le Cinema Francais
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The Richard & Mimi Fariña Fan Site

The Myths I Live By

Hey, you should see my mailbox! I’m overwhelmed with letters saying the world would be a better place if only I would write more about beach parties, Gidget and Moondoggie.

I, too, am craving more sights of that cute brown-eyed blonde in her itchy bitchy teenie weeny yellow polka dot bikini and all those buff actor studs who knew how to surf before there were wet suits.

But, before we open the gates to Jollity Farm, I have a few words to say about ‘Myth’ with a capital M. As an beatnik hippie English major at San Francisco State, I read a lot about it. A Myth is neither a computer game nor just a story that isn’t true, as many people think. Not to put too fine a point to it, myths are stories we need to believe in order to arrange our lives into a meaningful pattern.

So that our lives will make sense to ourselves.

I write about my personal myth from time to time, as I have fashioned it over the years. Seeking for meaning in my early years, hanging out with Gidget and Moondoggie, struggling to raise a family in the middle years as a world-famous lecturer on ginseng root, now a rootless wanderer wintering in Antwerp, and, of course, I’m a pig. My Patrushka, as you know, also looms large. The possibility of true love forever is a major strand of my myth.

Another myth I have glommed onto is the one about my homeland, America. Land of the Brave and Home of the Free. I speak without irony. America, crown thy good with brotherhood from sea to shining sea. America, the apple of the world’s eye where reign Liberty and Justice for all.
In my mythic America there could never be a story myth about about how Roosevelt or some other president authorized torture camps to extract information from enemy prisoners. Americans would never do that. That’s what the Nazis and the Japs did (forgive me, my Japanese readers, I’m using the words of my childhood myth-making time). In fact, it would be the most unAmerican thing I could think of.

All you Native Americans please shut up about our nineteenth century policies of genocide. All you Afro-American readers please be quiet about one hundred years of segregation by government policy. And I would prefer it if you wouldn’t mention the thousands of loyal Japanese-Americans who sat out WWII in concentration camps.

They don’t fit my myth, which I sometimes have to hold on to for dear life. If I begin to believe that the American government, by policy, has authorized torture as a method to gain information from terrorists, I have two choices. One, I can let my myth crumble and rebuild it with another myth about an America where all that stuff about Honor and Justice is bullshit. A lot of people do that.

Or I can start screaming LET’S FIND OUT! IS IT REALLY TRUE? IF IT IS, THEN BRING THOSE BASTARDS DOWN! Light the freedom torch again! Bring out the evidence. Let’s start the hearings. Because I need my Myth of America. And I’ll fight for it.

Baby Beatniks Go To College

In September 1959 it was still hot in San Jose, like it is everywhere across California that time of year. I was eating lunch at Walgreen’s Drugs with Louise Picchi, a luscious brunette from San Mateo High, same as me (I was from San Mateo High, not a luscious brunette. Thought I should make that clear). In those late days of summer all the freshmen kids from San Mateo huddled together for a few weeks, like polliwogs in an eddy of the creek that ran through the culvert. Louie was going to be a drama major and I knew her through my actor pal Ricky Shapero. We had almost nothing in common except familiarity and comfort, and that was plenty. Besides, from my side, she was a major fox. Normally not in my baby faced league.

Hey Louie. I can see your face so clear. Are you still eighteen somewhere in this universe? Still so killer beautiful, still so full of high spirits and joy?

We sat side by side at Walgreen’s steaming lunch counter perspiring and laughing about our horrible registration experiences. Root beer in Coke glasses with two straws and tuna fish sandwiches with a little scoop of potato salad on half a lettuce leaf. I wasn’t feeling beat today, I was trying out Joe College.

San Jose State was great for trying out that role. It had its share of concrete buildings designed by the Corps of Engineers for maximum boxy cheapness, but it also had, so unusual for a California state college campus – Tower Hall, a vine encrusted brick building from seventy years before. It was right out of a nineteen thirties hubba hubba college movie. To my eager young eyes it breathed a perfume of another world I wanted to be a part of. Poetry and great novels and people devoting their minds to thinking about big important things. You could walk down the ivy crawling cloister in the heat and hear droning professor flies lecturing on aerodynamics or Virgil or bonehead English grammar like it was still the 1920s and I could be wearing a tight sweater and bell-bottom pants and be the cat’s meow. That was me, creating the universe around me as I walked through it, but most guys preferred to wear Butchwax flattops, chinos, little plastic pocket protectors in their madras shirts and slide rules in their pocket protectors and walk down Seventh Street to the cafeteria in tough engineering student gangs.

It was a different time, the fall of 1959 – for one thing, girls still went to college to get their MRS degree. They didn’t think it was a joke. They majored in Home Ec or PE or possibly Elementary Ed and waited for the magic to happen and good luck and God bless ‘em.

There’s a gaggle of college girls coming now. Note their tight plaid skirts and white blouses, and one is wearing a sleeveless dress with petticoats underneath in spite of the heat. Actually, they’re kind of cute. And is their lipstick red! They’re on their way to the cafeteria to listen to ‘Running Bear loved little White Dove’ on the juke box. Then Paul Anka is going to sing ‘Hold me in your arms Bay-bey Maybe you and I will fall in love.’ Or some other song that would send me running for the door.

The cafeteria was much better about 4:00 PM when it was nearly empty. Then I could put on Oscar Peterson playing ‘Round About Midnight. Yes, one cool thing about 1959 was that jazz and rock and roll could share the jukebox comfortably together. Like inside my head. And I could drink coffee and read poetry and feel cool.

Louie wasn’t a gumsnapper like those girls walking down the street. She was my friend and those other girls weren’t, so even if she didn’t really like jazz or know anything about Jack Kerouac, she was still cool.

Yesterday we both stood in snaky lines in the headache sun for hours waiting to get our registration packets after all the sophomores, juniors and seniors were handed theirs. They were already inside the gym having fun racing from table to table signing up for classes. Once all the classes were full, then they let the freshmen in.

But we had won out in the end. We had some classes, even if they were not exactly what we had in mind. I had even got into English Comp 3A, required of and dreaded by freshman English majors. We were registered college students.

We had new homes too. Louie moved into the girl’s dorms and I checked into a boarding house on South Twelfth. Of course we would never see each other’s rooms. She could welcome me into her dorm lobby with all the other girls and their dates but not one step further. And Mrs. O’Reilly would have had a heart attack if a girl had knocked on her front door asking to see one of the guys. Unheard of. The adult world knew what young people would get up to if they ever had a chance to be alone and they were going to make damn sure they never were!

Of course no one considered what two guys might get up to if left alone in their rooms. This was 1959! ‘Gay’ meant ‘cheerful’. Of course there were homos and queers out there somewhere, but they didn’t go to San Jose State. I thought they were probably all middle aged guys who lived in San Francisco’s Polk Gulch.

My roomie was a big older guy who was majoring in Police Science. He didn’t smile much. His Dad was chief of police of one of the San Joaquin Valley farm towns. I might creep back at three a.m. from some horrible drunken debauch to find him still up studying. We didn’t have much to talk about but one Sunday he invited me to go with him to a Baptist church he attended way out in Los Gatos. And I, with great nonchalance, thought “what the hell…”

I didn’t know what to expect. My parents, when they went to church at all, were more of the polite and proper Episcopal persuasion. For me, church happened in gothic stone buildings that should be in an Agatha Christie mystery, with bald guys in white surplices who handed out the communion wafer at the altar rail with real wine in a little shot glass, and it was all steeped in a thousand years of ritual and was peaceful and soothing and kind of spiritual in a funny way. I’d never been to a Baptist church.

Not that I wasn’t worldly. By seventeen I was pretty damn sophisticated. I knew the score, man. Why, in high school I had written a poem that began:

Man is lost on a moor
Blind and deaf and lost on a moor.

ha ha! Let us laugh and be gay in the face of this bitter, tragic joke of life! Then I would light my pipe and stride gloomily into the mist. Keeping careful watch out for the Hound of the Baskervilles.

But I’d never been to a Baptist church. So we drove out to Los Gatos and before I knew it the preacher had launched into his sermon about why Caryl Chessman should be executed. This was a major case at the time and awareness of it had even dribbled down to apolitical seventeen year old kids like me. Chessman was supposedly the notorious “Red Light Bandit” who had robbed and raped women in LA many years before. After eleven years, he was still on Death Row in San Quentin but time was running out for him. Even for proponents of capital punishment the case was unsettling because Chessman hadn’t actually killed anyone. Read the Wikipedia article here if you’re interested.

I gathered that the preacher thought Chessman should be executed because he had violated God’s law and God was a real stickler for punishing anybody who disobeyed him. The pastor went right through the Old Testament pointing our how this kind of miscreant was stoned and this other kind was supposed to be because she helped her husband in a fight by grabbing the bad guy’s balls and squeezing real hard. Well, maybe he didn’t actually mention that one. Not proper. Even young guys like me who disobeyed their parents were stoned and pretty soon my blood was running cold and I was getting mad. What kind of God did these people believe in? And how can I get out of here without causing a scene?

I figured, “Well this guy is a preacher so he must know what he’s talking about. But if the Bible really says things like that than it’s just one more proof that God isn’t real because if there really is a God no way would he say things like that.”

We drove home in cool silence.

It didn’t take too long for the Joe College thing to wear off. The kids I was meeting were so square! There must be some cool people here somewhere! At breakfast in the boarding house I shared the table with a history major who smoked a pipe, an accounting guy who took electric guitar lessons, an engineering major who made jokes about the way I ate my fried egg, a business guy who was pledging a frat, and, one bright light — a coolguy from the San Fernando Valley who just wanted to get back to LA as soon as he could and marry his girl friend.

Dick would tell us hilarious stories about his high school scene at San Fernando Valley High and how he had taken Annette Funicello to his prom and I never could tell what was true and what he was making up but he made me laugh my head off and, unfortunately, that has always been my key criteria for people I want to hang out with.

Dick was from a show business family. His father wrote “You Never Miss Your Water Till The Well Runs Dry”. He said it as if I should be impressed. He was engaged to a honey blonde he talked to in the phone booth up at the corner every night. I used to walk up with him and watch him through the glass and wish I had a girl friend.

Once afterwards we walked downtown to see the new Sandra Dee flick “Gidget.” Dick claimed he knew most of the surfer actors in the flick, and maybe he did. Dick wasn’t a pathological liar – he was a great story-teller and he never let truth get in the way of a good story. I learned a lot from him! And besides, what did I care if he knew all those guys. I knew Moondoggie himself. (For anybody younger than 64 – Moondoggie was the surfer dude that Gidget falls in love with in the movie of the same name.) He was played by Jimmy Darren and Jimmy Darren had performed at San Mateo High’s 1959 Grad Night. And I’d said “Hi Jimmy!” So there.

Dick lasted one semester. He just wanted to get home to that honey babe as fast as he could. Sometimes I wonder if he got into show business like his father. I looked his name up on IMDB the other day. There is a guy with his name who directed porn movies in the seventies. Could it be him? Did he stay married to the beautiful honey blonde girl he was so in love with? Did they live in a big house in the San Fernando Valley and did he go off to work directing hot sex scenes all day? Then come home and read his kids a bedtime story? It’s slightly possible.